editing today. i don't know why but my chest is tight and hurts... maybe it's the gigantic bag of M&M's i tore through. maybe i'm tired. i've been contending for perspective. God's perspective. but... it's hard when you feel all wonky. and i do feel wonky. i've been listening to Kristine Mueller and i've been …
how easily we forget
oh. i forgot. i simply forgot. if it's possible, i forgot how good God is. yes. it's totally possible. because i did it. back in december i knew with every fiber of my being - i could feel His revelation surging through my body, my mind... my spirit. i knew it was Him that accomplished …
Comfortably Numb
i feel like i'm in Pink Floyd's The Wall... Hello? Is there anybody in there? Just nod if you can hear me. Is there anyone at home? Come on, now, I hear you're feeling down. Well I can ease your pain Get you on your feet again. Relax. I'll need some information first. Just the …
12 steps?
so today we put in our window units... oh the glory of living in a building built in the 1800's. the glory of humidity and leaky roofing, hooray for april showers. a few years ago my man said to me something that i guess has become a bit of a motto in our home. he …
small talk, schmall talk
i've never been any good at small talk. i've always jumped in head first with people, and i found over the years that didn't always go over so well... in fact i found a consistency of people backing slowly away reaching for the door. this was of course after i had poured out my life …
resurrection life
so here i sit 12:07am Easter night, i think it's the first Easter sunday i haven't been to a church service in my life - yet, i feel more encouraged and full of Life than i do after most church services i attend... sadly enough. we went to pancake church at our friend's house. we …
Something tells me it’s gonna be another long night…
first off let me just say - arrrg, it's so hard to choose to not be in a funk!! i was kicking myself for the reminder yesterday, sitting there, all funkified and sad... knowing i had to make a choice for my day.... and i finally did. i overcame my internal mullings and i came …
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sadness
i deal with sadness often. it seems i always have. even as a little girl i was alone a lot and i remember feeling overcome by sadness. in my 20's i wondered if i needed medication and at the same time vehemently opposed anyone who suggested it. The thing is, if i thought about it …
unlovely
can you see me? i'm so small i almost disappeared three times today. can you save me i almost let myself go - in the most tragic way, today. but i want to be beautiful to you. i want to be your most favorite thing in the world. is that too much to ask? these …
welcome to this world
a friend of mine told me i should start a blog. she said no one had anything to say that she was interested in, and i wrote interesting things... i do after-all want to be a writer... or am a writer. i guess the problem comes in when you come down to the issue of …