stumbling

editing today. i don't know why but my chest is tight and hurts... maybe it's the gigantic bag of M&M's i tore through. maybe i'm tired. i've been contending for perspective. God's perspective. but... it's hard when you feel all wonky. and i do feel wonky. i've been listening to Kristine Mueller and i've been …

Comfortably Numb

i feel like i'm in Pink Floyd's The Wall... Hello? Is there anybody in there? Just nod if you can hear me. Is there anyone at home? Come on, now, I hear you're feeling down. Well I can ease your pain Get you on your feet again. Relax. I'll need some information first. Just the …

12 steps?

so today we put in our window units... oh the glory of living in a building built in the 1800's. the glory of humidity and leaky roofing, hooray for april showers. a few years ago my man said to me something that i guess has become a bit of a motto in our home. he …

sadness

i deal with sadness often. it seems i always have. even as a little girl i was alone a lot and i remember feeling overcome by sadness. in my 20's i wondered if i needed medication and at the same time vehemently opposed anyone who suggested it. The thing is, if i thought about it …

unlovely

can you see me? i'm so small i almost disappeared three times today. can you save me i almost let myself go - in the most tragic way, today. but i want to be beautiful to you. i want to be your most favorite thing in the world. is that too much to ask? these …