today my heart is light. it's been a while since i've been able to say that. sometimes the lifting of a heavy heart requires a conversation and some honesty - which most of us seem to shy away from unfortunately. but after a few tears and a confession of hurt feelings, i feel better - …
confessions of a reject
ok, so being really honest is scary. i sat and stared at the last post for about 20 minutes before i posted it. it just puts so much skin in the game. i sat down with a lovely woman yesterday over coffee and had wonderful conversation. we both had the same philosophy - just get …
i’m just being honest…
i started off this whole blog endeavor thinking i just wouldn't tell anyone i was writing it... because i knew what would happen if anyone ever read it... i knew i would be afraid of what they would think. the ever ominous "They"... and sure enough i went back and hid my first post, i …
Jesus. help.
i hate this feeling. i'm angry and don't really know why. i hate being such an external processor. having feelings just bump around on the inside and feeling so agitated and having NO CLUE what's really going on. i mean i could focus on the simple surface stuff... but that doesn't really get me anywhere. …
things i hate
feeling generally frustrated today. i hate tensions over money. if you have it, if you don't, it seems like the source of so much frustration. i hate it. i hate that we have to have it to live. i hate that it's such a sneaky little weevil that no matter how much you have, you …
Out of the Darkness
I've come to understand over the years that all of life really is about perspective. How we see things, through the lens of our experience and emotion and thought processes, determines how we interpret every single teeny tiny thing that comes our way - well, big or small... the events that our lives consist of …
dreaming
i am dreaming again. funny how i had stopped. my heart is daring to wonder, daring to believe, daring to hope that all the preparation I've had, all the trials by fire I've walked through, all the tears and kicking and screaming, have all been a fruitful part of the journey that has led me …
pending involvement
so i have a job interview tomorrow. a job. after - 8 years basically. man. what a change that would be. i mean, i have a job. i have a couple of them. mommy, photography, misc studio things... but to have a regular "i'm expected to show up at a certain time" again job... it's …
stumbling
editing today. i don't know why but my chest is tight and hurts... maybe it's the gigantic bag of M&M's i tore through. maybe i'm tired. i've been contending for perspective. God's perspective. but... it's hard when you feel all wonky. and i do feel wonky. i've been listening to Kristine Mueller and i've been …
how easily we forget
oh. i forgot. i simply forgot. if it's possible, i forgot how good God is. yes. it's totally possible. because i did it. back in december i knew with every fiber of my being - i could feel His revelation surging through my body, my mind... my spirit. i knew it was Him that accomplished …
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