And I consider these things and I don’t think He’s cruel. I feel alive inside, at the thought that God would back up a man like that. because isn’t one of the biggest fears we have is that God won’t show up when we need him to?
...Am I willing to look at all of God, including this ancient, fire breathing, smoke billowing, smiting God, and not cross my arms, stick up my nose in disgust and indignation, turn around and walk away.
Pretty impulsively, I decided to jump on the wagon that was rumbling by my facebook page, and started reading through the Bible in 90 days with about 170 other people nation-wide. The church that pulled us all together is called the Back Packer Church, which i guess is what caught my attention in the first …
This is a hard fought journey that comes with a deep amount of internal conflict and doubt, misplaced hope and grief. But trust me, it does get easier and peace is on the other side of the grief. Donald Miller says it really well, so I thought I would just share. What Jesus Taught …
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I don't normally post things like this - but this was a clap of thunder and left me (as most things do) with nothing but more questions. But I wanted you to see this. Depression the secret we share
I'm having my portrait taken today. I have been a professional photographer for lots of years, so I know the ropes. I know what is possible after the fact by way of "helping" out the image. But still - there's nothing that keeps that camera from capturing exactly what you look like in reality. Or... …
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I looked my 11 year old daughter in her big round, brown eyes. I had called her into the kitchen where I was cooking supper, because i suddenly realized I had said a horrible thing to her and I had to make it right. In those big, beautiful tender eyes I saw fear and dread. I had done that. I had put that dread and fear in her heart that came spilling out of her eyes. She stood there timidly, waiting to hear what I wanted to say and my heart broke a little inside my chest.
this has been a closed loop in my mind for months now. My heart has been broken over it and broken over the open letters written to the church to enlighten us about where we all went wrong - because yes, apparently we are all wrong - but today I read this and after mulling …
the way the sunlight shines in his brown eyes, accentuating his eyelashes so black and perfectly curled - the way his skin is soft and pink and his lips are perfectly shaped and colored. his straight dirty blonde hair has grown long and hangs just a little in his eyes and curls just as it …
Today I'm sitting on my back deck, drinking coffee soaking in the all-too-scarce winter sunshine. Tomorrow I will be in Haiti sweating in the stifling 90 degree scorching sun. Same sun, different experience.So many things are now but also not yet. I am now a child of God and everything that belongs to my Father …
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