I am a healer. This is something I know to be true, but there is still so much to learn. Healing and Freedom have been the two siren calls of my life, yet I look back and see so much pain and control. I guess this is simply how it goes. The very things we …
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How far we’ve come. Looking behind reminds us of that - like the altars built to remember the pain and death and sacrifice. We keep the altars to remind us of the words - we will live and not die. It’s not enough to simply not die. It’s not enough to just keep our heads …
Sometimes it’s hard to see that you are in crisis by the time you get there. That’s where I was 6 weeks ago. Crisis. When we reach this spot, we have almost certainly developed extensive numbing/coping mechanisms to survive the situation. So not only do you have to work your way out of the crisis …
I didn’t wake up with gratitude this morning. I forgot. So I’ll think on it now. (I woke up thinking about getting the kids to school.) Thankful that I am healthy enough to work out hard and not break myself.Thankful for family that can watch my kids so we can go out of town.I’m thankful …
I’ve been thinking a lot about music lately. This blog used to be named guitarsallie because I always had a guitar in my hand, sitting on the back porch in the sunshine, singing my heart out. It got me through the toddler years, early marriage years, my angsty twenties and through the roller coaster of …
When I say the word surrender, what comes to mind? Someone throwing their hands up when they’re caught or threatened? Someone surrendering when they are being over powered - like in a wrestling match, or when they know they’ve been beaten at chess? Or maybe someone surrendering their life to death after a battle with …
This Month I am going to choose and feature a story of Overcoming struggle, and give away a free portrait session to the person whose story I pick. You could be featured on my blog next month!! Send me your stories!! The world needs to hear it. You need to hear it. Ok, I'll admit …
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I just went down a rabbit hole. I spent the last hour looking through my facebook posts to see what I said last year that would cause friends to "unfriend" me. I mean… I did get a hair political for a moment… before and during the election. Everyone got all sideways. A few friends and …
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Dreamed of Larisa last night. We were sitting side by side on the sand, looking out over the ocean. And I started weeping and begged her please don’t leave me. Please stay with me. And we held one another while I cried. In my dream I wanted her to live with us - she was …
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The first pin-light moment came when I was at my kitchen table in 2009 – fist fulls of hair, tears of frustration and pain streaming down my face. I was telling God that I didn’t know how to do it – I don’t know how to live this life. I don’t know how to be a good enough Christian, friend, daughter, wife, mother, house keeper, sister – you name it, I didn’t know how to do it. I was miserably failing at all the things I tried to do, all the characters I tried to be. Because none of it felt natural to me. I always felt like a fraud, displaced, disconnected from what was around me – Alone. And the relationships I did have, even the ones I had cultivated the best I knew how over the years, kept falling flat and leaving me empty, including my relationship with God. I begged God to tell me how to live like I knew I should. And what He said to me completely changed the trajectory of my life.
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