I didn’t wake up with gratitude this morning. I forgot. So I’ll think on it now. (I woke up thinking about getting the kids to school.) Thankful that I am healthy enough to work out hard and not break myself.Thankful for family that can watch my kids so we can go out of town.I’m thankful …
I Would Have Lost Heart…
I’ve been thinking a lot about music lately. This blog used to be named guitarsallie because I always had a guitar in my hand, sitting on the back porch in the sunshine, singing my heart out. It got me through the toddler years, early marriage years, my angsty twenties and through the roller coaster of …
The Art of Surrender
When I say the word surrender, what comes to mind? Someone throwing their hands up when they’re caught or threatened? Someone surrendering when they are being over powered - like in a wrestling match, or when they know they’ve been beaten at chess? Or maybe someone surrendering their life to death after a battle with …
Writing Your Struggle Story and Remembering the Goodness
This Month I am going to choose and feature a story of Overcoming struggle, and give away a free portrait session to the person whose story I pick. You could be featured on my blog next month!! Send me your stories!! The world needs to hear it. You need to hear it. Ok, I'll admit …
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Our Opinions, Social Media, what 2020 showed us, and an Apology.
I just went down a rabbit hole. I spent the last hour looking through my facebook posts to see what I said last year that would cause friends to "unfriend" me. I mean… I did get a hair political for a moment… before and during the election. Everyone got all sideways. A few friends and …
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Valentines Day Thoughts on Grief and Devastation. (yay valentines day!)
Dreamed of Larisa last night. We were sitting side by side on the sand, looking out over the ocean. And I started weeping and begged her please don’t leave me. Please stay with me. And we held one another while I cried. In my dream I wanted her to live with us - she was …
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Pin-Light Moments and How I Stopped Feeling Like a Fraud (My Story Part 1)
The first pin-light moment came when I was at my kitchen table in 2009 – fist fulls of hair, tears of frustration and pain streaming down my face. I was telling God that I didn’t know how to do it – I don’t know how to live this life. I don’t know how to be a good enough Christian, friend, daughter, wife, mother, house keeper, sister – you name it, I didn’t know how to do it. I was miserably failing at all the things I tried to do, all the characters I tried to be. Because none of it felt natural to me. I always felt like a fraud, displaced, disconnected from what was around me – Alone. And the relationships I did have, even the ones I had cultivated the best I knew how over the years, kept falling flat and leaving me empty, including my relationship with God. I begged God to tell me how to live like I knew I should. And what He said to me completely changed the trajectory of my life.
Emotions Never lie. That’s a load of bull hockey.
We are conditioned to not trust ourselves. We are told - your emotions lie to you, your heart is deceitful, push past those feelings, don’t be so sensitive, what you feel is not reality. My heart rate went up when I typed that last one… what overt gaslighting and absolute bull hockey thing to tell someone - that what they feel is not reality. How on earth are we supposed to trust ourselves when we are told we are out of touch with reality? That we are supposed to accept that there is a separate reality that exists, made of logic and reason that we are not a part of because we have strong feelings? It’s categorically damaging. It is utterly untrue.
Roadblocks, Hand Slaps, and Other Things that Derail Us
And just now, a sparrow is in the lobby - flying around, hitting the glass, trying to get out. So I opened the door and left the room so she could escape. What in the world timing is that? I was literally looking up birds for my new logo. I'll take it as a big …
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The Job of the Good Apple
Woman empowerment… yes. Slaying all the men to get it? No. A new and instantly beloved friend told me to look up Nikita Gill - Wild Embers within the first two minutes of meeting for the first time. So I read it. WILD EMBERS We are the descendants Of the wild women you forgotWe are the …